Here we are…it’s been a few days.  Things get easier and then they get harder.  Having a day without Tom (he’s w/ Sofia) is difficult.  I wanted to clean the house, etc. to make him happy.  Eliot won’t go down so that’s probably not going to happen.  I love this kid but he won’t go to sleep!  Maybe, just maybe he’s tired now.  I am crossing my fingers.  More rain today, too.  Won’t be making it to the Kangaroo Kids mom meeting.  Maybe in another week or more.  Day will be getting better soon, I am sure.

Trying this out

I don’t really know what I’m doing here, but I guess this is a space where I can vent and work through some of my feelings.  Right now we have a 3-week-old baby, Eliot, who is the greatest joy and challenge of my life.  He’s so adorable…and spending time with him is very fulfilling and wonderful.  Except for the times when he is a total fussbudget.  Today I am dealing with him not feeding so well.  He’ll nurse for a couple of minutes, get sleepy or fussy, then still act hungry but not eat.  I really just want someone to tell me that if he’s gaining weight and he’s having tons of wet/dirty diapers (all of which are true) that the TIME spent at the breast each feeding doesn’t really matter.  I have a call into the lactation specialist and am hoping to hear from them soon.  That’s all for today.  I’ll try to keep up with this.